I ask this question, to all who’ve known me.
And still I get no answer to this question.
Why I can't see, the things that are right in front of my face?
As I try to see my life for what it really is
It makes me sick to my stomach.
Sometimes I know things as if I have already seen them.
I try to understand why my mind sees things before they happen?
I can't explain this.
Sometimes I lay on my rack
Thinking bad things about people that are good to me.
Sometimes my mind rows to and fro,
but it never stops thinking.
I have asked God what this means and I get no answer!
So, I try not to think this way,
But the bad outweighs the good sometimes.
I love all people,
But sometimes I just think about killing them all.
I know this is not good,
so I ask God to please stop these thoughts.
I snap back to the same question I asked in the beginning of this.
Why I can't see that that is right in front of my face?
I sometimes feel that I'm blind to it,
It makes me lost to know where I'm not at sometimes!
As I ask for directions to help me on this path,
God has no time for me or anything that I'm asking.
I lose my whole train of thought and have to start all over again.
I really hate it when this happens!
I say to myself: ‘God please fix my silly mind and bring me back.’
Back to where I understand,
Where I know what's going on.
I have tons of crap going through my mind in seconds.
This makes for a bad headache,
So I again cry out to God and ask the same question.
Why can't I see?
Still He has no time for my answer.
God, Lord. Help me in this time of need for Your Son is lost and confused.
Straighten out my path so that I may understand where my mind catches up with my body!
Lord I just want for all this to stop.
Allow me to see what's in front of my face
So that when I ask “why can't I see?"
I see what’s always been right there!
God allow my mind to focus on the simple things
And allow it to get back on the right path of trusting in the best things I need.
That I may finally see what it is that you have for me O Lord.
Sometimes the easiest things are the hardest things to overcome.
I just would like to see!
God thanks for all You do and all that You are going to do,
to me and others in my life.
Lord forgive me for I'm not the best apple in the basket,
But I try to be what You want me to be Lord.
Allow me to keep pushing towards the mark, Father.
Please make me better in every way Lord.
Allow me to be brighter than I've ever been, Father.
I just need this in my life, O God.
Strengthen me where I'm broken,
and straighten out my mind in ways that I may be normal.
Now I can see what I was looking for,
It was there all along.
It was You, God!
In Jesus’ name:
I Love, Love You Lord...
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